A whole new chapter

My children never cease to amaze me. And in fact, they teach me things every single day.

My gorgeous little girl has been so big and brave and perhaps this means that I can be too.

She started pre-school last week and to say that I was dreading it would be a complete understatement. I was terrified of her not settling. And equally terrified of coming home to an empty nest. I just couldn’t imagine not having her at home with me.

But she was an absolute star. Off she went without so much as a wobble. She absolutely loved it and couldn’t wait to go back the next day. It was such a huge relief. We had talked lots about what would happen before she started but because she had never done anything like it before, I wasn’t sure that she really understood the concept of her staying there, while I went home.

I missed her oh so much. It honestly felt like I had lost a limb. And yes, there may have been a tear or three but when I went to collect her and was met with a beaming smile and her bursting to tell me all about her afternoon, I couldn’t help but be happy because she was so happy.

I was amazed at how grown up she was all of a sudden. So brave and I was just so incredibly proud. I had spent so long being worried sick about how she would cope with such a huge step but not only did she just take it all in her stride, she was absolutely loving it.

So maybe I can learn a thing or two from my baby girl. Maybe it is time for me to be brave and embrace this new stage in both of our lives.

I have spent years dreaming of the day when I would be able to go to the toilet on my own. And now it’s here. I get two and half hours all to myself every afternoon. And as much as I miss her like mad and can’t quite get used to just how quiet the house is, I think I might be able to grow to like a little time to myself. This is my time now. If I’m being completely honest though, I’m not quite sure what I’m going to do with it. But while I’m thinking about it, I quite fancy the idea of drinking coffee while it’s still hot. And not having to share the last piece of carrot cake πŸ˜‰

24 thoughts on “A whole new chapter

  1. Jackie Humphreys says:

    What a lovely post. It truely sums up how we all feel when our ‘little ones’ are moving on and how they surprise us totally.

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  2. Mum2Four (@AlliMarshall) says:

    It’s funny how Mums sympathise with Mums when they return to paid work yet we never really think about those unpaid working Mums who then have to face their children leaving them to go to school.
    It’s a huge change for you both & I hope you can enjoy your “Me” time.
    Now put the kettle on & maybe bake a cake?

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  3. The Moiderer says:

    The hubby who is a stay at home dad quoted the “going to the toilet in peace” thing as his first benefit of being child free too. It’s amazing how our lives change eh?

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  4. NotMyYear says:

    Well done your brave grown up little girl and hope you enjoy the peeing in peace. Start of new era full of stories for you and even more drawings for the fridge! 

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  5. Icklebabe.com says:

    What a lovely lovely post wifey. I feel the same, milly starts for just a few hours in October, and although we both need it, I can already feel the emptiness. So glad your gorgous girl is happy there though. Fingers crossed milsta will be the same πŸ˜‰ xxxxxxx

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